R.F., Frankfurt

Almost a year ago I came to Ilona for 14 days. I had previously been hospitalized twice due to my mental condition, but had been discharged as “incapacitated” after several months on both occasions.

After the healing work with Ilona I was able to gain a foothold in life again. I now have a job that I enjoy, even upgraded it to 35 hours per week, because I don’t mind! I make decisions and people respect me.

R.F., Frankfurt

LG 19 years, Berlin, 4 days in December 2021

At the age of 14 I was sexually abused by my father several times over a period of about a year.

I never dared say a word about it for fear of the consequences. I lived with this person in a household for almost 5 years and was forced to endure him near me every day. Depression accompanied me through my daily life and I had given up all hope of ever being able to feel pure happiness again. Not long ago I decided to write my experience down. By a happy coincidence, my mother found what I had written and it was through her that I finally came to Ilona Palucki. Together with my mother I started the journey to France and, uncertain but with great hope, I gave myself into Ilona’s care. In the beginning I wasn’t very convinced and had doubts that I could become healthy and happy again.

Now I can finally claim to be free and independent again. Now, I view what happened as a part of my life to which I peacefully said goodbye so that I can enjoy and savor my life. I have an emotional distance to what is happening and can talk about it without feeling disgust, anger or hatred. Through the breathing that Ilona taught me, I learned that I am in control of myself, my body and my mind.

Ilona gave me help to help myself and I am very grateful for that.

L.G., 19, Berlin

Marius S.

All my life I’ve been a very bright young man and always in a extremely good mood. I was known for my good humor and positivity. My cascading illness began three years ago, which I want to go into only superficially. At first I had no idea where the symptoms were coming from. I had physical as well as psychological symptoms and an extreme sadness within me, which often triggered depression. The worst was my nervous system going haywire and I had no energy. I had lost all my lust for life. I really saw a lot of doctors and tried all sorts of other things.

After intensively dealing with the topic “traumata” I encountered Ilona’s work. I didn’t hesitate and arranged the date for therapy with her. When we started the therapy I had a lot of doubts inside of me, because I had already had some failures.

But Ilona always motivated me and was sure that we could do it. She is a very optimistic and self-confident woman, which she can be, because of her successful method. After a few days of hard work I finally made it. We solved my emotional blockages with the breathing method. I have never felt so overwhelmingly happy in my life. I finally did it and in such a short time. Ilona’s method is really extremely efficient and I learned to breathe properly again, which is the basis for health. In addition, we did body work, i.e. corrected my posture again. A change in attitude alone creates a different attitude towards life. In fact, it is logical that when each bone is properly seated on top of the other, there may be less or no sensitivities.

I’m just incredibly excited about how much has happened in such a short time.

If anyone is reading this and considering starting this therapy, please put your doubts aside and trust yourself and Ilona that you can get through this together. Ilona is also very familiar with many other topics and can very well understand what is going on in you. That’s what defines her competence. I am thrilled and would do it again at any time.

Many greetings, Marius S.

M.T., Bavaria

The stay with Ilona was just special and unique – a journey to myself! When I suddenly stopped being able to sleep a year ago and terrible fears were tormenting me all night, which I couldn’t classify, I happened upon Ilona’s website by accident. It quickly became clear to me that I had post-traumatic stress disorder. 9 months later I started the trip to France.

For many years I had suppressed how much I suffered in childhood. My brother was seriously ill as a small child and has been severely disabled ever since. For years his life hung by a thread. My parents, overwhelmed by the situation, paid him their full attention and overlooked me and my fears, which were growing ever stronger even in my early childhood. At home I was often alone with myself and my thoughts and couldn’t deal with many experiences and pictures from the hospitals. Neither of my parents were emotionally able to be there me. I was neglected even though I had everything else from them. In addition, I felt more and more that I had to function and not show any weaknesses. Hatred and anger towards the brother got worse and worse, which also led to strong feelings of guilt. My perfectionism grew. I lost more and more of the feeling for myself. Who was I? With others I shammed. Nobody should look into my soul, which led to an alienation from myself more and more. A vicious circle!

Even as a child, I had symptoms of anxiety such as hyperventilating or a racing heart. My muscles have been cramped since I was little. I forgot a lot over the years. For many years the fears were gone (as a young mother I simply had no time for them), then they came back, were gone gone again, but I was never really free from dull feelings. In addition, there was a birth trauma when my first child was born!

At the age of 41, happily married and myself a mother of two children, the dark thoughts suddenly wanted to come out more strongly than usual. In the sleepless nights last fall, I realized it!

Ilona encouraged me to come to Le Luc. The thought of being without my family, without my two small children, for two weeks was difficult for me at first. But I dared and also found that my husband and my children can get along well without me :

Ilona gave me the space and time for it in Le Luc – a lot of time! I spent two weeks with her.

Since arriving at the airport and in her beautiful oasis of calm at home, I felt a great deal of trust in Ilona and her abilities. I felt very comfortable from the first day. I was able to open up.

The breathing was incredibly good from the first day on and many entanglements and blockages were loosened during the healing work. The healing work is really unique!

The special thing was that during the nights at Ilona’s after the healing work, more and more pictures appeared. Pictures and experiences ran through like a film of my life, down to the last detail I was suddenly able to remember situations and experiences that I hadn’t thought of for years.

The next morning I wrote everything down in detail and read it to Ilona. So we were able to work our way completely through the trauma and entanglement through many long conversations and the subsequent healing work.

The night before last at Ilona’s I had a terrible nightmare – after the dream it was clear to me that I knew it from a very long time ago. I had had it just like that when I was around three or four years old. However, at the end of the dream this time Ilona herself showed up and calmed me down. As grueling as the night was, I knew it was all gone. I felt that I had worked everything out.

Over the two weeks I felt more and more who I really was, learned to take my space, not to look away in conversations. Such important things that would have taken me years in therapy.

The last few days Ilona did her bodywork with me. I was totally crooked, I wasn’t standing properly on both feet. My gait was poor and I no longer felt really comfortable in my body.

Incredible but true: after only a few days I stood straight. The hunchback disappeared. With Ilona’s help, I learned how to walk properly. I still practice on it every day and am thrilled to see how my gait and thus my mood changes.

Saying goodbye to Ilona and Le Luc was difficult, but after the intense time I was looking forward to my family and trying things out in everyday life. The demons are defeated, but of course work goes on at home. Yes, I have changed, but not my environment. One notices that!

I practice everyday in everyday life: saying no, drawing clearer boundaries. The hardest thing for me is to shed the perfectionism that has accompanied me for years. Handing over tasks. The valuable breathing helps calm me down and relax. Talking on the phone with my parents was easier. I am no longer afraid to travel to them. I no longer feel sadness or anger over all the lost childhood and adolescence. Of course, I still know how it was, but the memory no longer causes pain or uncomfortable feelings.

Dear Ilona, ​​I thank you with all my heart for your wonderful, loving and empathic work. Thank you for walking the exciting and exhausting way back into the past with me. It wasn’t a vacation, but it was just wonderful and important! You really are like a detective at work and I can understand that you love your calling.

I can encourage everyone who carries around unresolved and traumatic things with them for a long time to get in touch with Ilona.

Despite all the “dramas” there is always such a positive, encouraging and humorous mood from Ilona in coping with this burden that I was really carried away by this positive mood. Your words still echoing in my ear….

Thank you!!!

With very kind regards from Bavaria to your oasis of calm and peace

M.T., Bavaria

(translated from German)

K.C., Germany

A year ago I was with Ilona in Le Luc for 11 days and was able to get to know her and her work. During these days my whole life has passed in front of me and I was able to let go of a lot of old baggage. Much has changed in my life since then, but above all it is the emotional dependencies in my family and my everyday life that I was allowed to let go. I now notice how liberating it is and what emotional baggage I have carried with me all my life, how this has influenced and colored my whole life and all relationships. Years of therapy couldn’t help me with my childhood and transgenerational trauma and ended up being a pointless waste of time. My attitude towards life has changed since working with Ilona. The sadness and heaviness have disappeared and there is now much more room for lightness, joy and confidence. It was definitely one of the best decisions of my life to go to Le Luc and work with Ilona. If more therapists could work like this – it would bring healing to many people in a short time and change their lives.

K.C., Germany

(translated from German)

Stefanie from Northern Germany

On July 2nd I arrived exhausted, anxious and hopeless at Ilona in Le Luc.

I thought if she can’t help me then nobody can help me.

And I was so right!

After more than 30 years with recurring, even severe, depressions and fears, I was with Ilona in her beautiful house on the “couch” and breathed.

In the truest sense of the word, we worked 7 traumas through and away In 7 days. More and more I came into my strength and to myself – Stefanie!

It was exhausting work – but it was so worth it.

Ilona was by my side, like a rock. We dived together into the depths of my soul and my body and pulled one predator-fish after the another out of the water!

Today after 4 weeks I am on a very good path. I feel much better, I have energy again and can approach my ideas and plans and put them into practice. My work as a funeral orator is picking up speed again, the zest for life and the courage have returned.

To put it in Ilona‘s words: “How great is that actually? If not now, then when?”

I, Stefanie, thank you, dear Ilona from the bottom of my heart.

I can warmly recommend you with my deepest conviction!

All the best

Stefanie from Northern Germany

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Vani

Hello! A brief insight:

About half a year ago, the ground was torn from under my feet in the most violent way. I was firmly convinced that I would never get through this, let alone that someone could help me to come to terms with it! I suffered what is known as retraumatisation!

At the age of 14, I was robbed of my virginity by an extremely brutal rape that could / should have resulted in death. […]

I’ve had nightmares every night for the past six months! Again and again, I dreamed what had happened! I started sudden fainting. I just fell over and very often fell on my head! Daily raging headaches, panic attacks. I couldn’t go to work like that either! What should they think if I just fall down out of the blue.

For all of the nights of the past 6 months I had recurring nightmares! I suffered from extreme chronic constipation, sometimes couldn’t go to the toilet for 1 week! In order to survive, I had told myself until the end of last year that it happened voluntarily! Until that one day six months ago I had no memory of it, only of what I had told myself.

That year I went to a psychiatrist that was recommended to me. But it didn’t work. In my opinion, it got worse after that. By clearly admitting the rape, it all came back. Due to a random remark from my partner, the whole house of cards collapsed.

That was the worst moment in my life. From then on, I kept fainting and falling on the floor, hurting myself! – Not that bad so far! Luckily!

My partner spent hours searching the internet for a way to get help! At this point I have to quickly say thank you to him! He is the greatest man I could ever have wished for! The only one who really cared for what has happened to me! Unfortunately, my family didn’t really care when I had told them about it at the beginning of this year!

He and Ilona saved my life! Because the thoughts of suicide kept growing, too! I didn’t want any of that anymore! I didn’t want to feel the pain anymore! Then he came across Ilona’s website and practically pushed me into it!

In the beginning I was very suspicious and I actually only got involved with it for my partner! AT FIRST!! He was so convinced that this woman can help me that it was almost easy to believe him!

And so, I got involved, got on the plane and flew to Nice! I held on to my queasy feeling until the second when Ilona stood in front of me! I can’t describe it; it was a totally crazy feeling! We greeted each other and immediately a kind of calm settled in me and I knew instinctively “Yes, this woman will help you!” It was blatant, really. But that’s the way it is! This amazing woman helped me! I have absolutely no more emotions about what had happened and feel like reborn!

I can finally breathe deeply again and feel happy!! I can go into the future positively and optimistically again and even now in the present I would never have believed that I would ever feel so good and alive again! Ilona, ​​I’m just so grateful to you for everything! To me you are a heroine!

Vani

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This feedback has been shortened. You can read the full text >>here<<  This text contains explicit mention of physical and sexual violence that some readers may find upsetting. Discretion advised.

A. from Frankfurt a. Main, Dentist, 12/20

Abortion, East-West Conflict

At the beginning of the year I contacted Ilona Palucki via email. I got her data from the internet. The termination of a pregnancy was 5 years past. Feelings of guilt in me came to the surface and start to increase. I could hardly think of anything else. Panic attacks. It could not go on like that.

Ilona picked me up from the airport and I immediately had the feeling that the healing work had begun.

The reputable cooperation was characterized by intensive, trustful conversations. The experience was then processed with the help of her deep soul healing work. Very impressive.

Another trauma, the above-mentioned East-West conflict, then became apparent during the work. In my youth my family moved from East to West Germany and everything familiar disappeared. A deep aversion to the foreign had taken hold. The experiences were also removed from the body through the deep soul healing work. I could feel it.

Now I am finally one with my childish self again. All the pieces of the puzzle, including the ones I hadn’t even thought about, are put together. And I feel wonderfully whole and round.

Of course I want to change something in my life still. I still have goals. But I see clearly in that again, have strength. In a peculiar way, my soul has come to rest. Ancient wisdom, skillfully applied.

I should have gone to Ilona much earlier, comes to my mind now. That’s a shame. A free happy soul would have spared me many an experience.

A. from Frankfurt a. Main, Dentist, 12/20

Anonymous, published June ’21

Feedback for I. Palucki, from R.F., 27, May 19, 2021, Frankfurt

The deep soul healing work goes beyond the mind and intellect. Many things are changing, but you don’t notice it at first, even though it already feels really good right after the work.  Traumas are resolved, the madness in you comes to an end, you feel yourself.

The feedbacks are true. Mrs. I. Palucki is so busy that she just couldn’t write all these reports herself. She works with dedication, real interpersonal encounters. During the healing work, she manages to become the closest intimate because she understands and, through experience, brings and shares an inconceivably large amount of knowledge. She is honest, positively affirmative and loving, in the strict sense of healing.

During this time I was able for the first time to truely grasp / emotionally comprehend / realise fundamental things about being human. Dear Ilona, thank you ♥ ️

Feedback for I. Palucki, from R.F., 27, May 19, 2021, Frankfurt

Heike B., Berlin; Dream, Arisen After The Healing Work

The Dream

 

Last night I met my mother in a dream. She was facing me, an arm’s length away from me. Her hair was dark brown and fell over her shoulders. It was as long as my own. Her eyes were golden. Never I had seen my mother so beautiful.

“Child,” she said.

I couldn’t remember her ever calling me ‘child’.

“Yes,” I said. “I am your child, Heike.”

“Nice that you are standing here with me,” she said. “And not over there anymore.”

Her arm pointed behind me. I turned around. The grassy area at my feet sloped gently towards the pale blue horizon. The break-off edge wasn’t that far away. Maybe a strong stone’s throw. From the depths, from a great distance, came the muffled roar of the waves that ate their way into the foot of the cliff.

“There I was?” I asked. “There on the precipice?”

“Yes. There you stood. There on the edge, ”she said. “And I couldn’t reach you.”

I was silent for a moment.

“Why not?” I asked then. “Why couldn’t you take me away from there?”

Wordlessly she pointed in the opposite direction, behind her. Her gaze stayed on my face. My gaze slipped past her. It followed her gesture.

Only now did I notice that we were standing at the highest point of the landscape. All around us, the gray-green sward fell off in all directions. As my gaze wandered over the scene like the headlights of a lighthouse, my pupils widened. We stood on a small plateau, high above the troubled sea. The break line of the cliff was all around us, nowhere further away than a powerful stone’s throw. Behind: ocean and sky, stretched out to infinity. For a brief moment I felt dizzy.

My mother was still pointing behind her.

“There’s nothing there, mom,” I said. “There is only the abyss. Like everywhere around us.“ “Werner is over there”, she said. “Do you see? I couldn’t get to you. I had to always stay within shouting distance of him.”

“There’s nobody there”, I said. “Dad jumped a long time ago.”

“That can’t be” she said slowly into the silence that followed my words. “I can feel him in my back.”

An impulse came flying, paradoxical, urgent: to laugh, to make the air vibrate, to swirl her hair, to shake her rigid stance.

“Dad left us years ago, mom,” I said. “Have you never turned around? I saw him jump. I was thirteen then. “

There was silence again.

“Have you never turned around?” I repeated. “Have you never looked to see if he’s still there?”

Her big golden eyes looked at me.

“How could I have turned around, child,” she said. “I had to keep an eye on you. You on your side of the precipice.”

We were silent for a long time. Just stood there, in front of each other, at the most exposed point on the island. Around us, a stone’s throw away, the breaking line high above the wild, cold water of the ocean, which ate from all sides on the rock foundation. Your golden eyes, my silver ones. Your dark hair, mine light under the sky. Her widened gaze. My widened gaze, which took in and reflected hers. Her widened gaze, which took in and reflected mine.

I’m sorry, child, she said.

I heard it even though her lips didn’t move.

It doesn’t matter anymore, I said.

I saw in her eyes that she heard it, even though my lips didn’t move.

The silky blue sky fell softly on us. The roaring sea retreated behind the horizon. At the same moment the green plateau sank, widened, melted in all directions, exhaling rolling hills and calm valleys.

Goodbye, mom, I said without a word. Goodbye, my child, she said without a word.

We parted. Each of us in their direction.

Even as I woke up, I felt the smile on my lips.

Le Luc 02/03/2021

Anonymous – Belgium

As a child, I experienced severe sexual violence and physical abuse, which resulted in a complex post-traumatic stress disorder and a dissociative state.

From an early age I had lived with fear, shame, and a cloud of depressions. The physical symptoms are as follows: back pain, headache and neck pain. My resilient nature has taken me far in life, but since the birth of my children, the symptoms of my post-traumatic stress have increased significantly. I found it almost impossible to do my daily chores and my work that I really enjoy. I had a heavy cloud of sadness over my head that I couldn’t dispel. Life was a daily struggle. I drift away from thoughts, movies, flashbacks and haven’t had the ability to turn them off. I lived in the past and couldn’t see the beauty of the present through the cloud of mist.

Since my treatment and visit to Ilona, ​​I can say that I am one with my body, my soul and my spirit. My being represents my authentic self. The traumas have disappeared and will never grasp me again. I am reborn, I woke up and I have become my authentic self. I no longer live in my head and I no longer suffer from any of the symptoms described above, I am free to be myself. The Palucki Method is extremely effective and has changed my life.

Anonymous – Belgium

G.U., CEO, Berlin

Ilona Palucki is an amazing leadership personality herself, with great empathy, skill and professionalism in her field. It was hence easy for me to open up with her during this very deep and emotional process of healing work, and trust her guidance, expertise and in-depths understanding of the human emotional and energetic fabric. Since my healing process with Ilona, I truly feel as if my life has received a reset. As the saying goes: Take the lessons, but leave the burden behind. What I considered difficult moments in my life, no longer burden and influence me. I now feel much lighter, calmer and more self confident. New events can become learning points for my inner strength and wisdom. I love about the work and the method Ilona has developed that it takes you far beyond your mind, and lets you truly heal, not only understand. And it shows in every day life – in my professional leadership journey, with my team, my family and personal relationships. I am at peace with my past and I am far more myself and confident to create my future. 

G.U., CEO, Berlin

Tanja / Lüneburg

Transcript English

What was the situation for which you were seeking help

It had all started quite early. I had not acknowledged it at that time. At the age of 25, however it began to limit my life. So, we are talking about mild panic attacks, anxiety attacks, I didn’t like to drive a car anymore, I didn’t like to leave the house anymore, I didn’t like to meet people anymore, I continued to limit myself more and more so much that eventually I didn’t leave the house anymore at all, lost friends, lost my work …and I never knew where this came from.

Had you already done treatments before?

I tried many things. I tried classic talk therapy, behavioral therapy… all that during the time when I was still sometimes leaving the house. But nobody  did… well, I don’t want to say ‘not take me seriously’ – but you were quickly out of the office or out of the practice again… the typical experience: you go there, you have those 45 minutes, you talk about yourself, and then the other person looks at you and asks: “So, how are you feeling now?” So that you think: “Hm, yeah, you could tell me perhaps, how I could possibly feel!”  But well then this was only bearing  short-term fruits. Then I started with hypnosis therapy, very for a very long time, almost…  I had the people come here in regular intervals, because I had already stopped to go outside and… well, these were always only like short-term effects, helping only short term… basically, just hanging in until the next appointment and then it continued.

How long did you get treatment?

If you look at it all together… of course, I had some breaks in between, where it was a little better  and then it got worse again… it was an up-and-down for me, half a year it went well, another year it didn’t. So, overall, about 10 years before I met Ilona Palucki.

Did you know what was the source of these symptoms?

Yes and no. I had a suspicion once – I had to deal with a lot of loss, but that there was a direct connection there and that this was also a very big core of it… and especially also in interpersonal relationships and also in partnerships… that that where the decisive points… I was not aware of to that extent, no. I was always looking for the ‘why’, but you can’t find that. I tell you honestly, you can’t find that. I have always been looking for the ‘one’ reason, but it is the mass of experience that had made this out of me.

Had you been diagnosed with trauma?

No, I was just always told you have fears of loss… and you just have to live with that… and that It would be normal that people are ceasing from life. I mean we are not talking about – well there is not enough time today to get into it – we are not talking about one event of death here, like that only grandma had died. I had lost 14 beloved human beings! Among that my best friend. She has died in an absolutely severe traffic accident and I have found her in the early morning. I have seen her just five minutes before and had waved at her. She was in the car while I was waiting at the bus stop for my ride share and 10 minutes later, she was dead. And I have taken all of that with me. Again, there is not really the time to get into details here, but a lot has happened. In the therapies and the following years, they always let me talk about it, that’s right, but there was no one who told me, how I can get rid of that.

How did it continue?

Then I started to inform myself how I could get rid of this. I have read many books, but this has never helped… and then incidentally, I stumbled upon Ilona Palucki’s website in the internet. But I have looked at that website for one or two years, to be honest, because I could never imagine that those success stories – the accounts of people’s experiences, which where on that site at that point… that this could be true. So, I have looked at that until eventually my condition has gotten so bad – I had also lost a lot of weight and couldn’t leave the house anymore at all, not for shopping, not even for the mailbox – so that one day I took all my courage and wrote an email.

How did the treatment go?

I had to take a lot of courage that day (when we started) and approached her and then it (anxiety) evaporated within two minutes, because I thought there is a haven of tranquility where I can lean on and then we went into the work. The first session was glaring (smiles), was really glaring, because you don’t know what to expect. So, then she explained it and we went into the breathing, very slowly and very gently also, not like stress-stress and certainly no glances at the clock, like as if we have to get it all done in 10 minutes. And yeah, after the first time there was already a different feeling. Yes, it was different, it was really different.

How long did the treatment go altogether?

Ms. Palucki was here for eight days.* We have worked every day twice. We met regularly. When we went into the breathing, I still had a bit of respect each time, but it got better each time and what I have experienced there… is difficult to describe. Perhaps I can explain briefly… when we went into the story with my mother it was like as if things were coming out from my belly and leaving. Interestingly, since then I have no more stomach-aches. It’s just gone! The funniest thing that we found was about my hair. I had always knots in my hair. I could do whatever, but nothing helped …expensive conditioner etc. I was downstairs showering and then I went back to her that evening and told her: “You won’t believe it, I was able to comb my hair just now!” It’s incredible, it’s stayed like that eversince, it’s incredible! No more knots!

* Note from the editor: After the time together on site, each client receives 2 months of post-treatment coaching calls by phone/skype. 

How many traumas or themes were there?

There were seven traumas that we uncovered bit by bit. We started with the one that was the easiest for me and then I increased. One was covered underneath it all which I didn’t know at all. I thought about it for a while: “Shall I mention this theme or not?” Ms. Palucki has seen that and asked me: “Something is still on your mind, isn’t it?” I said: “Yes, there is a very special theme, a relationship-theme which I hadn’t seen as a trauma.” I hadn’t seen that as so severe that it could have had such consequences for my life. I didn’t know that. So, we took it on and it was also incredible, I must say.

When we were through… I used to always have a lot of strength in my body… in my legs, not in my arms, but in my legs… previously, I was in athletics, gymnastics, I was in the pre-selection for the Olympics… and suddenly the strength came back to my legs. It started to tingle… the muscles… and since then I have tilting stability once again! I stand with both legs in my life again! It sounds so silly, but it is true! And I would have never thought that this trauma has put a lid on all this! … and since then… well… happy! It’s the only thing I can say. I have really gotten rid of all this for good! I can talk about it now without tearing up, without feeling unwell… amazing! Yes.

It is now 1 1/2 years since your treatment. In what way have your strains changed?

The treatment is uncovering many layers in you and in addition is continuing to work inside of you, meanwhile you are not fully aware of that. I mean honestly, I wasn’t telling myself every day for one and a half years: “Now you have to exercises this!” It just continues to process by itself, somewhere, I don’t know where, in the brain, wherever. And the effect is that I have just gotten calmer inside, my whole body has calmed down. I can do things like… just eating something, what I feel like eating, I don’t overthink that anymore.

I just go out and about, go for a walk, and I don’t think about it:  “Is an attack coming? Is no attack coming? Are you able to make it back home?” One sleeps differently, one eats differently, one walks differently, one is calmer. You know, through this method, through this breathing, through this purging that goes through the entire body… this really does a lot for you. I can only say things have gotten more relaxed, even though not everything may work out perfectly just yet, but that is also my own process, of course. But the traumas are completely gone!

How do you exemplify that the traumas are gone?

Because I can talk about it without breaking down. I remember the first time talking to Ilona Palucki on Skype. I was very motivated in the beginning, very tough. I told myself: “We’ll just make an appointment. All good.” It didn’t take me two minutes until I couldn’t speak anymore out of crying, out of anger, out of fears of loss, all I touched upon briefly with her. Now, we could discuss the entire list that she noted down that filled several pages without me walking with a stick afterwards. That is my experience. That does a lot. That really does a lot! I can move around in my family easier and more freely. In case we talk about these things sometime I don’t break down inside. I don’t look for the escape door for flight. Before, when I got triggered – how I used to call it – I just took on the flight. I just said I would have to go shopping or do something important, because I just wanted to get away from the subject.

How did your symptoms change?

They have really decreased to a minimum. I didn’t have one single severe panic attacks since then. Sometimes, I step on the brakes, but this is just purely me, it’s not about the method, because sometimes I cannot realize that it’s over. That I could just go visit Ilona by car for example (2000 km distance; note of the editor). There I sometimes limit myself a bit, but I do that myself. But it’s just that you have your feeling of freedom back. When I go shopping it’s just not present anymore. You don’t think about whether you are getting another attack at the cashier. Or “look, the cashier looks at me so weirdly, they all probably see what’s going with me.” – All of that is over.

Also, the interaction in my relationship has become completely different. We are meeting on level playing field. We can talk to each other in a different way, because I am not as anxious anymore.

Are you a different person now?

I can’t really say that. I believe I’m still in the finding process and I believe I am now becoming that what I perhaps always wanted to be, but have never been able to live because of traumas, because of my education, which was like it was, and because I have always limited myself in life, because I thought: “It’s all so important! Only family! You must, you must, you must be there for everybody and do everything and give everything!” …and… No! I was taught better in those eight days! And only in eight days, I want to point out here once again. You know. (laughs)

C. /Lower Saxony

Dear Ilona,

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for our intensive work together! You gave me a new life! My life in the shadows is over! After 29 years I can finally get relief and live!

I came to you at the end of my tether, completely desperate and so far removed from a life worth living that I actually no longer existed. My life was not only an anchorless, endless struggle, it was also a torture. After countless stints at hospitals and psychiatries, I “went through” another therapy unsuccessfully again when I came across your homepage. I read the feedbacks of your clients and thought to myself: this can’t be?! This is too good to be true!! And then I gathered my courage and wrote to you.

From the first moment we met I was convinced that you were the only person who could help me and I immediately felt hope. How you explained your work, it was completely logical and understandable for me. I had absolutely no doubts and unconditional trust! Now I just had to hold out until I could finally travel to you.

You are an unconditionally warm and open person and radiate so much positive and calming energy. You always asked if I felt safe about how I was doing and if I needed anything. During our first conversations and the anamnesis I felt understood for the first time and you, dear Ilona, ​​showed me a respect that nobody had given me before.

I was unstable, I didn’t feel understood by my private and professional environment and my complaints were obviously no longer being taken seriously. Since the age of 16 I suffered from mental illnesses, and in the last few years there have also been more and more physical conditions. I was in constant high tension. I was trembling, always nervous and very scared. My life consisted of constantly relieving myself of the tension and “distracting” myself in order to avoid “worse”… My “diagnosis register” got bigger and bigger. Borderline personality disorder, complex post-traumatic stress disorder, various phobias, psychogenic seizures, epilepsy, dissociation. I could hardly tolerate food. I had permanent diarrhea, stomach cramps and nausea for over half a year. I had to make extremely restrictive changes to my diet for myself, I could only tolerate a few foods. My tongue often burned like hell as soon as I came in contact with food. I got the diagnosis of irritable bowel syndrome, but received no further medical assistance. I suffered from nausea and pressure in my throat for years. With the fear of vomiting, I avoided crowds at some point. I was scared of vomiting in public. During a lecture, a meeting, in the cinema, in a restaurant, on the bus, while shopping … I slowly developed agoraphobia and at times couldn’t leave the house. If I did, it was associated with extreme fears.

I didn’t feel a part of life. I saw the world as if through a gray veil which hardly let any light pass through. “Outside” was real life that I just couldn’t be part of and I couldn’t see myself to be ever a part of it. It seemed natural for everyone else to sing, dance, laugh, meet their obligations, celebrate, … none of that was possible for me and it triggered infinite sadness in me. I was trapped in a cage. I barely felt my body, almost only when inflicting pain on myself. When I walked I felt like I was flying – flying away. I thought of myself more of as a burden to others and that I had no right to exist.

Ilona, ​​you taught me to breathe, encouraged me to trust myself to breathe. And after just a few breaths, things started to change. I suddenly felt a space in me. A space that I can trust that is always there. Me.  At first it was exhausting. After even just learning your breathing method, a lot had already changed for the better! In an incredibly short amount of time my body integrated the new breathing more and more and became more natural and in flow.

With seriousness and enormous sensitivity you immediately recognized the direct connections between my sensitivities and problems and my life’s story.

In my childhood and youth I was exposed to psychological and physical violence without protection. My father hunted me like an animal. I was neglected and free personal development was prevented and destroyed over and over again. My mother humiliated me and told my teachers, our neighbors, my classmates … how “evil” I was and that it was me who was to blame for everything. My childhood / adolescence was marked by fear of death. After I escaped my family and was placed in a youth home, I ended up blaming myself for my family being “destroyed”. I felt responsible for the misery in my parents ‘and siblings’ lives.

With your special breathing technique I knew that I am always in control and I always felt safe and protected. The expected massiveness of emotions did not show up – it did not overwhelm me. I was able to let go of my traumas in forgiveness and peace within a few days. Now there are only pictures, without emotions. Every day I became more liberated and stronger!

Most of the conditions directly resolved alongside. My diarrhea disappeared immediately and after a few days I started to be able to eat almost anything I felt like. My appetite came back and the desire to eat – to enjoy the food! The pressure in my throat has also dissolved, I clearly felt that. My inner tension and restlessness were suddenly gone. I’m getting braver and braver and my constant fear has decreased significantly and is still getting less. My muscles are more relaxed and thus a lot of pain and tension have passed. It all happened so quickly that you can’t even grasp it and actually have to realize it first. All the pain, all the suffering has in fact come to an end!

When I got home I was amazed. I have a completely new feeling. A carefree, lively and curious feeling. I feel love for myself and for my life. I finally perceive my environment (which was once so threatening to me) and have stopped hiding. I can finally enjoy the nice little things and moments. I am completely calm. I am no longer afraid of myself and have gained great respect for myself. I have found peace and look to my future with optimism, full of confidence and strength!

In the last few days with you, we worked with my body (body work). You have an ineffable experience and knowledge in this area as well. It may be little things that ultimately unfolded enormously. Also in an incredibly short amount of time. And it is possible because you are always extremely focused and know where, how and when to move a lever. You are authentic and competent. Throughout all of your outstanding work as well as a personality! My whole body has straightened up and lets me feel my strength even more. I am present and feel my entire body and it is beautiful! My facial features have changed, they are softer, the sadness in my eyes is gone, they have become much more open and brighter. I feel very comfortable and beautiful in my body. This is a completely new feeling for me, I have always viewed and treated my body as an enemy.

And yes: This reads as unbelievable – but that’s exactly what it is! Everything is as described in the client feedbacks! You have seen me as a human being, with dignity and respect, the way I really am. You have led me into a new life as an equal at eye level. “Finally, I can continue with university as I have wanted!” – “Finally, I can pursue my professional goals the way I wanted!”

C. /Lower Saxony

M. Kassel

I am 34 years old and suffered psychological abuse in my childhood for many years. We were constantly yelled at and humiliated by our mother. My brother and I were psychologically in a state of neglect. The worst fears were triggered! Most of the time, we were alone and on our own with all our fears, especially at night!

My real dad got extremely badmouthed when my parents split – we were just 3 and 1 years old. My mother wanted us to be adopted by the stepfather. When I was 5 and my brother 3, we had come with our mother to Germany from Serbia. For 8 years we had to suffer from brutalities, assaults and beatings of the stepfather until the divorce occurred.

I felt inferior and dull, felt constantly humiliated, guilty, and like under a bell jar, stiff and isolated, not ‘right’! I had a lot of guilt about everyone!

Powerlessness has accompanied my life until now. I felt dead, had no zest for life. Mother screamed and humiliated us, intrigued behind my back with friends and acquaintances and refused all my friends.

I was full of doubts about people and I was very afraid of becoming like my mother.

What I was able to experience at Ilona is beyond my imagination. Fortunately! Our thoughts are our limits. Here I was allowed to learn to expand them to the horizon and, who knows, much further. I learned to self-love, self-accept, I got to know beauty, forgiveness and freedom – and all of this is in my bag now for my I return.

I wish all people deep healing, forgiveness and full recovery. Healthy person, healthy earth, beautiful sayings, the truth of which you can meet here if you want. I learned to walk and now I walk!

Thank you Ilona! Thank You – really! So fortunate that our paths have crossed. I have tried a lot in my life: psychotherapy, psych-K, hypnosis, yoga, ayahuasca, shamanism, and of course repressing and to straighten myself up again, but nothing has helped me. Ilona’s method catapulted me from 0 to 100 in a short time, made me so happy and went so deep. I was in doubt and didn’t believe in anything anymore.

By chance I had discovered Ilona’s method on an online forum, but postponed it for 3 years, because I thought I could manage it another way.

Dear Ilona, ​​you walked the steps to the gate to the world with me. You showed me how to knock and what to do. Now the gate has opened for me.

Thank you for your encompassing and deep company. Thank you for your corrections, thoughtwise, physically and psychologically! I am in deep trust with you as a person and your work.

M. Kassel

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Jenny, 31 years / Mecklenburg-Western Pomerania

I had experienced sexual abuse by my brother. The abuse stayed with me until I was with Ilona Palucki.

I also experienced physical and psychological abuse, humiliation, and physical abuse from my mother until I was 16 years old. She took her aggression out on me. Then she kicked me out of the apartment when I was 16. From then on I had to live alone.

“You can’t do anything!” “You are nothing!” were the sentences that accompanied me through my childhood.

But the worst part was that I could not develop love for my little daughter, 15 months old. I couldn’t even love myself. I wanted to give her everything that I didn’t have myself.

6 weeks after my stay with Ilona Palucki, I can now say: I love my daughter and I can let her feel it. I am very grateful for that, very glad.

I felt very comfortable and welcomed by her, she managed to resolve these injuries from my childhood within 4 days. That also saved me a stay in the clinic, which I was strongly advised to do.

Jenny, 31 years / Mecklenburg-Western Pomerania

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Felix, Bavaria

I am glowing!

I am 32 years old, male! Since childhood my adoption has been preying on my mind. I was given away right after birth, for reasons unknown to me. Very cold and loveless, as my adoption broker explained to me. I just wanted to find my roots.

I have never found a reason for it, even though I had searched for it so desperately. Nightmares over nightmares all my life, even though I have such wonderful and adorable parents. I could never have wished for more.

Nevertheless: Anger and self-doubt were my daily companions until 6 weeks ago, especially at night along with recurrent bad dreams of not being accepted, not being loved and being rejected. Panic even during the day. Everyday life became more and more difficult. in 5 years I hadn’t dared to sleep in my own bed and instead stayed on my sofa. I had done everything I could to avoid falling asleep and avoiding nightmares, which did not work!

At some point I took drugs to suppress the constant self-doubt.

Although I did not want it, I had always tried to destroy my surroundings with brutal force. I almost managed to accomplish that.

The daily despair of my parents almost drove me crazy.

Despite years of therapies and treatments since childhood and various diagnoses from psychiatrists, such as ADHD, I am more and more desperate. Because nobody could help me, I finally tried to commit suicide in order to finally find peace.

As a really last attempt, my mother took up a recommendation that she passed on to me. This finally led me completely exhausted (on the verge of madness) to Ilona Palucki. Then Corona intervened so that it had to be postponed. Ilona already supported me during the crisis so that I could hold out until we could eventually drive there.

We worked in the morning, at noon and in the evening for 10 days. From the first moment I felt fully understood, the basic basis for improvements, to be able to let go of this subject of adoption, which is so stressful for me, in absolute peace, to lovingly say goodbye to my attempted suicide, to other bad experiences as well, and to very slowly lay a new foundation stone for me to be developed together with Ilona.

Finally I can show my parents from the bottom of my heart every day anew that the topic of adoption is history! I have already forgotten it!

6 weeks after the start of the treatment, now I go into the future together with my surroundings full of enthusiasm and rediscovery every day. Finally I take responsibility for myself with joy, and feel every day anew what it means to outgrow yourself.

Fortunately, I have 2 months of aftercare so that I can really come to Ilona with many questions and it continues to stabilize me every day. I thank her every day.

Felix, Bavaria

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S.W./Baden-Würtemberg

I felt very bad the 15 years before I went to Ilona for treatment.

I have been exposed to pressure from my narcissistic mother more and more during these years and felt defenseless against it. I then had respiratory illnesses for years and my immune system hardly reacted anymore, as well as dizziness, concentration problems, inner restlessness, hip problems and sciatica, emotional changes, diffuse fears and panic. After that came the lack of strength for years, a condition similar to burnout as well as constant infections of the sinuses, bronchi and lungs. I suffered from constant circles of thought about my mother and the entangled family situation. I hardly had any strength left to take care of our own children and work. A few years ago I quit my job because I was constantly sick.

In the end I hardly had the courage to continue like this and I kept pulling back. I also had no understanding from my fellow human beings about the situation with my mother. Nobody could have guessed how insidiously her attacks hit me and how skillfully she tried to steal my mind with gaslighting – again and again she twisted facts and situations to make me think that I am crazy and there is something wrong with me.

Then she very cleverly incited my father, brother, husband and my own children against me, so that I vegetated lonely for years.

After the trauma therapy at Ilona, I am now beginning to develop new perspectives for the future.

I am no longer in contact with my mother because I no longer want to take her humiliations and I no longer see myself as a victim of the things that are happening around me, but instead I see new ways how I can solve them for me.

The treatment was a real relief for me. Every day, I felt more liberated from all the suffering and noticed how great it is when you sort every individual feeling in the body and let it calm down.

The thought of circling around my mother has completely vanished, now my thoughts are about the here and now.

The thoughts I am now focusing on are about finding good solutions for the future and getting ahead as a result of that.

Now, I no longer put up with the fact that other people devalue me. Never again, I want to get into the victim role, I’ve been in for so long.

Now, I can make clear decisions. This is possible, because all of the fogginess, that previously existed, has disappeared.

I feel healthy and clear, I want to work again and enjoy my life. The tension is gone, my hip pain has disappeared and I want to surround myself with people who are good for me.

After breathing therapy I feel completely free from all negative feelings that have dominated my day –  such as fear, panic, sadness, anger and despair. All of these feelings have calmed down as a result of the treatment. Now I can put away what has happened as a past that no longer upsets me emotionally, which creates a lot of space for new things.

I am fascinated by the breathing technique that Ilona uses and the resulting success. This has brought me much further in the processing than all previous therapies such as EMDR, hypnosis therapy, behavior therapy, family constellations, etc.

S.W./Baden-Würtemberg

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Christina Helgevold/ Norway

Review 15.05.20

In February I spent 14 days with Ilona in France.

I have had some challenges in my life, various traumas, especially sexual abuse, and became sicker and sicker both physically and mentally. I have been diagnosed as depression, bipolar disorder, Crohn’s syndrome, ulcerative colitis, have had tendonitis in both shoulders, twice blood clots in the legs, fatty liver, gastroparesis, food allergies, celiac disease etc.

It all peaked in the spring of 2018, when I failed to keep me on my feet. I was so weak and out of shape that I couldn’t eat or stand upright. At the same time my stomach was swollen so I looked pregnant. After a lot of tests and doctor visits, I was diagnosed with Systemic Sclerosis / Scleroderma. This is an autoimmune disease, and the body was full of inflammation after years of physical and mental stress. Of course I was in despair, but also determined to recover.

I also got death anxiety, and had frequent anxiety attacks that were extremely exhausting. Chronic abdominal pain and dizziness made me spend most of the day in bed.

After about a year of bed, I got in touch with Ilona Palucki. I talked to her on Skype and she thought she could help me. I booked a stay and traveled in mid-February 2020

She welcomed me to the airport, and at her house I got to stay in a cozy apartment in her house. We started working on Ilona’s method the next day. There were 2-3 “sessions” every day ahead, with a rest day in between. It was tiring while it was on, but so incredibly well worth it.

I came home in late February and must say that the anxiety attacks are gone – the trauma is gone!

If I occasionally felt anxiety, then it was just breathing as I had learned, so I soon discovered that the trauma was gone.

Gradually, the physical tensions in the body began to disappear. The night’s sleep got better, and now I sleep all night without waking. The energy comes back, and most days I have no need to rest anymore.

I can eat more food and the dizziness is almost completely gone. The mood gets better and better every single day, I can laugh again and enjoy life.

During the heaviest periods, I asked in the evening to die in my sleep, because I could not live anymore. After the healing work that addressed this issue these feelings were gone at once and they didn’t come back.

I still get good follow-up of Ilona, ​​and we talk about once a week on the phone. I also know that I can call her at any time if I need to.

I thank Ilona for giving me my life back! I still see progress every single day, and I’m sure I’ll be 100% healthy again.

I highly recommend a stay with her!

With love and gratitude,

Christina Helgevold/ Norway

Addition 10.6.20:   It is 3 1/2  months later now and I just received results from testing the blood, liver and kidneys: before, the values were alarming. They are all fine now!*

*physiological health may improve after our treatment of trauma, but there is no gurantee nor promise. (Note from the editor)

Anja, 44, Hamburg

Dear Ilona,

I would like to say a few words about my stay and the work with you.

Firstly, as a big thank you to you for lovingly guiding me and accompanying me on my way. And then, to encourage people who have suffered deep injuries like me to take this step.

There is a solution and there is a way to dissolve and let go of what has been experienced, no matter how terrible, so that your pure self, your potential, can appear free of stress and may unfold.

Everyone who comes to Ilona has not only “a” problem, “a” pattern, “a” trauma. Everyone brings a whole bundle with them, and so did I. And I’m so happy because I came with a desire to solve my deepest problem that I felt completely powerless to do alone since childhood, but went with so much more.

Now after the treatment, it feels like I’ve completely erased my brain. The surface that developed is mirror-like, and when I look into it, I only see myself, without anything that pulls and tugs. Spaces have arisen in and around me. They are empty, clear and pure, pure freedom! For the first time I can simply be myself, an indescribable and, above all, new feeling!

I had severe pain in my foot, hip and back for 10 years. They have completely disappeared in the foot and hips, the back is almost symptom-free, and when I walk with the new posture I feel as well as I have only known from intensive meditation before. It is crazy, I go and have to smile, simply because of the fact that I feel this “pleasure”. And we managed to do this with only 2 days of body work, even though my orthopedic surgeon told me at the time: “It has been yours from birth, you will have to live with the pain”. Nothing I have to do, no more. How liberating!

Another new body feeling is that of relaxation. In the past, it sometimes took me hours – or tablets – to fall asleep. Today, three breaths of deep breathing are enough, and I can’t get any further because I get so relaxed and tired that I can immediately fall asleep peacefully.

My favorite quote from Paolo Coelho: “On the way, maybe it’s not about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about throwing off everything that we are not, so that we can be what we are meant to be.”

… to throw off everything that we are not … I am NOT: fear, pain, grief, lack of awareness, chaos, discouragement, disgust, fainting. Because all of these are emotions, sensitivities and behavior patterns that have arisen in me at some point from what I have experienced. But I am not all of that.

I am just me, clear, pure, full of joy and light. I walk upright now, my head held high, and I see the horizon and what lies before me with complete freedom and joy.

I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart, dear Ilona, ​​for being such a wonderful person and doing this precious work.

I’m so excited to see what is allowed to unfold for me now 

Anja, 44, Hamburg

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A. S.-N., Bern, Switzerland, 18.02.2020

When I arrived at the retreat January 2020, I was finished. I was more dead than alive.

The few weeks from our first interview to the start of the job were difficult for me to get through. My whole body was plagued by pain, I could hardly sleep, could hardly eat. I was chronically tired and without drive. My inner world was flooded with nightmarish images, which I tried to keep under control with all my might. I had already lost my work, my social environment, and the contact with my own children. What I had left was the stressful relationship with my long-time husband and a little spark of hope for healing-

For a better understanding a brief outline of my history of suffering:
o Born out of wedlock, no contact with the biological father, rejected by the legal father.
o Narcissistically disturbed mother
o Abuse by the grandfather, introduction to pedophile circles
o Abuse by the uncle, forced to participate in rituals of abuse
o Mind control training
o Various rapes during adolescence
o Marriage to a man who was also traumatized
o Rejection by my own children
o Sick leave, diagnosis of fibromyalgia (incurable) and complex post-traumatic stress disorder (proposed to 5-10 years of psychotherapy with dire outlook)

We started working as soon as I arrived. The first thing I noticed: I didn’t have to tell much. Briefly touching down upon the individual stories was enough to give access to a deep understanding. The breathing technique I was taught gave me complete security at all times of being in control of my inner processes. Then the journey could start. I was accompanied through the depths of my soul. A room was opened up, like a uterus, into which I could birth myself anew again. I was accompanied at every moment. It enabled me to dissolve my terrifying stories and to grow into real forgiveness. It is now proving to be an effective means of coping better with the demands of everyday life and keeping my soul healthy. Equally important was the absolute presence maintained throughout the process. With united forces we detached myself from the old stories.
It was crucial for the in-depth healing process that we didn’t focus on just one story. Although the ritual abuse certainly left the greatest wounds, the other stories also have shaped me massively. With every bit of healing I became braver and stronger and ventured into the next phase more relaxed. After four days I clearly felt: my soul was healed.

Four weeks have now passed. Time for a review. The conversations strengthen me and show me small errors. My sleep has improved. But also: I still have a sleep disorder. My digestion is slowly getting going again. The pain is still there. I always have to remind myself: the body takes time. The relationship with my husband is gradually improving. Relationships also take time. But, and this is the most important thing: my soul is healed.

I can best describe this difference with a picture. Imagine a house without windows, just the bare window openings, in a cold winter night. All cold and all darkness stream freely into the room. You try to make a fire in this house to keep yourself warm. All is in vain. It remains cold and dark. Now my house has real windows. On bright days, light fills the room and on cold nights my inner fire keeps me warm. I can take good care of myself.
The four days of deep soul work led me from hopeless despair to a hopeful new start. I thank my inner guidance, I thank life that it led me to find this. 

A. S.-N., Bern, Switzerland, 18.02.2020

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Philipp

From trauma to psychosomatics to mental health and the joy of life

I didn’t know how to be happy anymore. The past kept closing in on me over and over again. Subtle psychological violence in childhood, developed traumas into adulthood, broken relationships, social breakdown and secondary traumas resulted in depression, addiction, guilt and low self-esteem.

From the first moment on our contact was straightforward and with confidence, so I decided to fly to Nice for the first date possible. It was about a month to get there. This time was a challenge for me – the past, which had only recently come up, shook me deeply and was also the reason for my search for help.

When I arrived I could feel the energy of this wonderful place. In my apartment there, I was able to find peace, had space and time to let everything work, to reflect, to sleep, to relax, to recharge my batteries.

After taking the medical history on the first day, we went through trauma, entanglement, dependency, guilt and responsibility for ten days together.

With this help I managed to free myself from suffering, to let go of emotions in connection with trauma, in forgiveness and in love. I have learned anew …
to breathe
to feel
to see
to understand
to maintain posture and to let go
to live and to love again
to nurture my own roots.

I couldn’t believe it myself, from unit to unit, from day to day, even overnight, I felt more and more change, refinement, joy, the motivation to look ahead again.

Our work expanded my HORIZON
Access to insight and acceptance
An access to love and forgiveness
Access to peace, freedom and gratitude
An access to myself, to meaning and love of life
An access to generosity

I want, I decide, I am important …. a new joy of life, a new Me.

Now that I am back home, I find that I perceive the world around me differently. People perceive and approach me differently. I actively take up my space and consciously practice mindfulness.

For me, the breathing method has become a tool that I no longer want to do without. I notice that I take breaks and integrate breathing more and more into everyday life.

After I internalized the breathing technique for the first four days, we turned to body work. The exciting, indeed impressive thing about it for me personally is the mirror of myself that was brought to my attention through the method. I’ve learned to look and accept. The traumatic experiences, the guilt itself and the lack of self-worth had begun to show their traces on me.

The time with you remains a revelation.

I am very happy that we have found each other and I only wish that your work will help many people to be happy and go upright through life again.

In deep connection
Philipp

Addendum: It is now 7 weeks later. I decided to move to Norway and start a new life! I’m really looking forward to it!

D. / Tyrol / Austria

Broken-heart syndrome

10 years suffering from Broken-Heart Syndrome. I had tried so many therapies, 15 infusions for my nerves, depression and nothing got me out of this dilemma! Now I feel freed from a great burden. I did not think that is possible to make something like this happen in the shortest amount of time, within a few days.
You have taken such care of me – Thank you from the bottom of my heart, for your caring and loving attention!!

D. / Tyrol / Austria

Diana 47 years, physiotherapist and Pilates coach from Hannover

Now my time with Ilona is 5 weeks ago.
I was with her in southern France for eight days. Eight days that were a turning point in my life. I am happy. More about that later.

Honestly, I just could not quite believe it. I could not believe that these traumas could be really gone after those 8 days. Actually, I could not believe that you can get rid of them at all.

They’re gone! Several psychotherapies have not achieved that.

Physically and mentally traumatized from my childhood, I’ve been carrying a heavy load with me all these years. A burden that did allow me to physically and emotionally stand up straight and made me feel depressed. Now I got rid of this weight. I feel that the topics are deleted from “my hard drive”!

In those 8 days Ilona felt to attentive to me 150%. Her whole attention was on me. I was able to give myself into her hands with confidence.

The first thing I learned was the breathing technique. This accompanies the entire therapy and this technique remains an important tool in further life. I can and should use it daily. Yes, I have a tool that helps me at all times to cope with stressful situations. It must be said at this point, however: you have to do it. You have to actually use those tools. You have to change something in your life and that is to integrate the learned behavior as a training in your everyday life. There you have tools that – I would rather say “gifts” – that help at any time should you get into “stressful situations”. And now I notice that these “stressful situations” are no longer there. I grew, I healed. In the last few days I have had situations that would have “knocked me down” before the therapy, but is no longer the case. I am clear, self-confident and amaze my fellow human beings. They are experiencing a new Diana.

I find the concept of Ilona totally impressive and unique. It is based on three main pillars. The deep healing work, the body work and the accompaniment in the new day-to-day life. First the mental distress is solved, then it goes into the body-work.

Because only once one is freed from these traumatic legacies, one can truly stand up straight. An approach that also concerns and convinces me as a physiotherapist.

The body-work impressed me a lot as well. Perhaps especially as a physiotherapist. I have felt the changes, to be able to physically raise myself only after the deep soul-healing work. It is a completely new body-feeling based on an authentic presence that leads to an optimized posture and radiates a newly won self-confidence.

Well, and then it went back home, back to everyday life. Which certainly presents a challenge to every therapy. Also here, I was impressed by Ilona’s concept, because the connection to her did not break up. Especially now, I needed support. It was too tempting to fall back into old patterns of behavior. In daily phone calls she was there for me. She accompanied, supported, stabilized me and taught me to be able to do that for myself. Her hand is still there for me after 5 weeks.

Yes, I am happy. This feeling keeps on expanding deep inside of me. I feel, I have arrived. Arrived in myself.

At this point I would like to express my gratitude to the people who enabled me to make this therapy possible. I thank you with all my heart!

I have experiences that have changed me and will also enrich my work.
Dear Ilona, ​​I thank you with all my heart!
Sincerely, Diana.

Diana 47 years, physiotherapist and Pilates coach from Hannover

Markus/ Software-Specialist/Frankfurt

Just in time for my 18th year, I got the most severe depression full on. After a few weeks, I realized what I had and that I had to go search for help. I was in behavioral therapy for a long time. Between the ages of 20 and 25, I thought about just quitting and taking my own life everyday; One evening it was really close.

By my late 20’s, after years of behavioral therapy and countless family constellations, I had reached a stage where I thought: the way it is now, it’s not a life, but it’s enough to survive, and I kept on existing that way although I have been successful in my studies and career to date.

By mid-30 I got flashbacks. Flashbacks are a momentary re-experiencing of traumatic childhood events, and I’ve made x-amount of those. From morning to night those scenes played in front of my mind´s eye and I went through everything – the tormenting, the abuse of my mother to me – again and again and again.

I realized that I was severely traumatized, something I did not know before; I had no “access” to these images before. I searched the internet for a trauma therapy and found Ilona. Skyped, appointments agreed on and I hit the road.

Ilona did in 15 days what I did not manage myself and almost 20 years of (self-) therapy. I was completely isolated from my body, which was not clear to me at the time. I integrate the skills and abilities that I learned from Ilona into everyday life and 15 minutes a day really consciously.

It is incredible. I never thought it to be possible that I could ever escape this cold and colorless hell of depression, but with Ilona’s work I did it.

I’m going out, enjoying the moment, discovering new sides of myself, and I’m simply just with myself.

I am infinitely grateful to you, Ilona. May many still experience and participate in your wonderful work!

Markus/ Software-Specialist/Frankfurt

Julia, student, Austria

Various reasons led me to the decision to get this treatment. I was psychologically eradicated and carried ballast from childhood and youth with me. Again and again I seemed to stand in my own way, because most of the time when I was sure that it was going great for me and I was one step further, I was thrown backwards. Some sabotage mechanisms seemed to be enacted according to the same recurring pattern. I hoped for answers and relief from this treatment and got much more. With a lot of patience and structure, Ms. Palucki managed to put the loose ends together and make them into a whole. This enabled me to get a more objective and less emotionally charged approach to the past. My expectation that deep soothing work must be painful and confronting was disproved on the first day. Each session I left with new ease and joy. Joy, because each time I felt to grow a step closer to myself, closer to the “I”, that I lost many years ago and wasn´t able to find again. Ms. Palucki’s charisma and sensitivity made it easy for me to open up and feel safe with her. Every progress, every change in me seemed to truthfully delight her and her positivity sparked my own every time.

Six weeks it has been since the treatment, and I can feel the impact of the work every day. My social environment notices the positive effect on me and comments on my changed behavior and my charisma again and again. I am infinitely grateful to what this treatment made possible for me. In a short time, so much moved inside of me and got rid of all the ballast. I am enthused about this work and can highly recommend it to everyone.

Julia, student

Austria

Tina from Lüneburg

It was the most positive decision of my life

After 13 years of living with the heaviest anxiety and panic disorder, I had no self-confidence and no self-esteem. After an odyssey on therapeutic procedures, such as: conversation-, ergo-, behavioral-therapy and NLP-knocking technique, hypnosis (6 years at regular intervals) to self-therapy using about 30 different books, I just wasn´t able to get to my illness – it was still here! It came back at regular intervals so that I had not left the house at all for almost 2 years and did not dare to talk to anybody. I had groceries put at my doorstep, broke off all contact with the outside world, even to my family. Talking on the phone was the only thing I could do – anything else simply wasn´t possible. I lost everything – job, friends, partner and body weight from 62 to 47 kg!

I had already saved a not about this treatment for ages, but I did not dare to get in contact, because I did not want to or I could not believe the other testimonials!

In between, I had regained a bit of freedom again and was at least able to move within a radius of 1 km around my apartment, but still always with anxiety attacks. I began to recount my life in a book. After 227 pages I noticed that everything was repeating itself and that death had been my constant companion and that I wasn´t able to love myself anymore, because in the last years 14 loved ones had died around me – through accidents, illness and even through murder.

One day, when I was in extreme panic again, wincing at every little noise and while the medications helped me only to a limited extent, I got in contact.

Already at the first conversation it was clear that I was traumatized and Ms. Palucki brought everything to the point, which I had tried in 13 years of therapy to clarify. She gave me time to think about whether I would travel to her or whether she would come to see me. At that moment I was so effusive that I could imagine a trip, but only in my thoughts!

I then decided for her to travel to my place. Eight weeks later, Ms. Palucki stood in front of me and I was so scared and panicking, but in the first 10 minutes she took away my fear and promised that everything would be fine.

Incredulous, I went into the work. It was like as if we were twins then.

It was exhausting and exciting at the same time! You have to admit a lot of things to yourself and have to have absolute confidence. What I was allowed to experience there, you can not put into words, you have to have experienced it yourself.

On the third day my world already looked completely different. On the fifth day I went home singing and on the seventh day I could only smile and then I was looking forward to the meetings. We resolved 7 deeply-stuck traumas!!! Including one, that had to do with sexuality. It was not a physical abuse, for me, it was severe emotional strain. And I wasn´t aware of that trauma at all. It was buried under those cases of death and my two miscarriages. And yes, I was still skeptical if it really helped, but I was taught a lesson: my hair. For years I wasn´t able to comb my hair properly, because they were extremely knotted. Even with an expensive conditioner, it was hardly possible and a lot of hair just fell out. After the first shower, I stood in front of the mirror, took the hairbrush and thought “ouch, ouch”, but it actually went through smoothly all of a sudden!!! I immediately told the sensation to Ms. Palucki and she could hardly believe it either and until today I comb my hair with a lot of pleasure!!!

What can I say, now 6 weeks have passed and every day I am living a bit more! My nightmares are gone. My fear is gone. My panic is gone. My medication is down to only 25 mg per day. My headache and abdominal pain are gone. No more anxiety of loud sirens and blue lights – just gone! I like eating again and looking at myself in the mirror. I am slowly but steadily expanding the radius around my house – which is at 10 km now. I have begun to love myself again. And two days ago I woke up smiling and knew I WILL BE COMPLETELY HEALTHY AGAIN!!!

THANKS YOU ILONA – your work belongs into the textbooks of this world!!! If many a doctor or psychologist would start to exercise this, a lot of people would get much, much better very quickly and they could go into recovery and live!!!

I needed 13 years! The best years of my life I spent in fear! Now I’m 38 years old and I’m catching up on everything I may have missed and the first step was to approach my family. One does not believe how much these 8 days with Ms. Palucki have changed me and this affects my whole environment and life. THANK YOU and also a thank you to me, because I dared to face these traumas >>> Now I can say it: There is a life after the traumas. Please do not wait too long. Every day counts.

Tina from Lüneburg

Monika

In the beginning of February, I went for treatment for 5 days. Now it is end of March. My concern was to dare another attempt to heal my sexual abuse which I had experienced already in very early childhood. I am 69 years old and have already done a lot of therapies in my life. Despite all, I felt very disheartened, lonely, isolated and extremely abandoned, even though I have a family and friends. I had little confidence and let myself be dragged down by the challenges of life rather, was anxious and rather saw the negative and the dark in all. Additionally to this, I have developed bodily symptoms for which there are no scientific medical explanation. I explained it with the experience of massive sexual abuse in my early childhood, where little Monika had to endure fear of death. This fear led to a massive intrinsic hardening of the body, that had never been dissolved really. Then the experience of fear is stored in my cells, so that I developed something like an inherent fear of life.

In the breathing work I realized quite quickly that I had build a wall around myself. behind which I lived lonely and abandoned. This wall was impermeable, it reminded me on the movie “The Wall” (2012, German: Die Wand; TN) a lot. I abruptly realized how much I had locked myself off from everything. This wall which I had certainly intuitively build for self-protection, I could suddenly recognize, feel, perceive and breath away. I still feel the liberation and lightness in my chest. It feels so endlessly good! This breath I repeat as often as I think about it and at some point I will only breath like I have learned it from Ilona.

I also feel the positive effect in my day-to-day life. My life’s circumstances have not changed, I have changed. I feel more lively in contact with my fellow human beings! This, of course, causes me to receive more warmth and affection back in turn!

My husband is treating me much more fondly! I dare to approach friends more naturally and more openly. I no longer fear rejection and repudiation. Completely stunning and unbelievably enriching I find, that I can laugh about my own shortcomings. This type of humor was unknown to me before. If sometimes things get critical or difficult, I laugh rather than being offended or hurt. I also feel a transformation of the bodily love. There is more willingness to get into it and simply less fear and depreciation.

I think I am on a good path to enjoy my life newly. Of course, I sometime fall in old holes, but I can climb out again and feel free, alive and happy, even by myself alone! Ilona, I thank you for your presence, your knowledge and your positive way of being with me. It has advanced me so much!

Monika   (translated form German)

Paul M., Frankfurt

Only shortly before his death I learned that my father was with the perpetrators – with the SS! I had the opinion that my father, born 1922, has been seduced by the Nazis like all other young men. He came from a very modest upbringing,  an infidelity-accident, the social surrounding shaped by thugs, friction with Jews, early going to work in the mine.

Then the came what he experienced as great liberty: Hitler-Youth, Jungvolk, Reichs-worker-duty, superrace! Young people at the age of 19-20 can be susceptible and more easily seduced by this… black uniform and the girls were full of admiration /he told to a confidante, who told me). Had he “only” been seduced by the Nazis? I can only suspect what he has done. (The transports and the pits he has “seen”). I viewed him as guilty. I was furiously angry on him, because he never expressed regret what harm “the Germans” caused. I wasn’t even able to say the word father.

Today I can speak about it with ease, what “he” has done. Before that, I couldn’t do this at all. We were able to treat my unbelievable anger towards him within a few hours and completely dissolve it! I have personally found my peace. I can distance myself. I can even call him father again.

Thank you for the relief

Paul M., Frankfurt

Philipp/Ergo-Therapist/Frankfurt

With the deep-soul-healing work combined with the special breathing technique – I was able to experience my body in an entirely new way. I was able to let burdens of my past literally melt away. (It sort of felt like that.) The perception of my body is different now and I feel more strong from within. Also, I clearly feel changes in my physiology, for example a chronic hardening of the shoulder towards the neck has like vanished.

We carry so much from our past with us. The work with you has showed me, how important it is to listen to your breath. It gives us life and it can liberate us. It is a great gift to have experienced all of this here.

The journey to you was a very good decision. I also want to express my gratitude about the wonderful environment here and the sunny weather even in the winter. Thanks for everything and lots of strength for your ongoing work.

Philipp/Ergo-Therapist/Frankfurt

A bit later

Processes post deep-soul-treatment:

A couple of days after the treatment back home, I was able to sense an intense change of my body-perception. I have the feeling, that my body is able to perceive situations more “serene” and more conscious. I feel emotionally more stable and that gives me certainty.

Access to my Inner has opened and I had the insight, how important it is, to feel safe, snug and not to be vulnerable, because only then we can grow in ourselves properly. Injuries can bring us insight, but then they should be allowed to leave again. Personally, I perceive these shifts in a way that I want to structure my life newly once again and live out my potential more. I have the feeling that I can’t help, but working towards a positive change. In any case, I feel a positive and driving force inside of me.

It was beautiful to have spent the last weeks of the old year at your retreat and to start into the new year with a new energy. It is a really big gift that I found with you,

thank you for the time with you.

Philipp

Franziska/Hannover/Educator

I have researched for years, to find something like this. It is the most incredible work, I have ever experienced!

A few days before Christmas I basically showed up at Iona’s doorstep. Planned and agreed upon was only a stay in her retreat as a holiday, but secretly I had high hopes, she would work with me. After my arrival I asked her really nervously, whether it would be possible, to go into treatment during the next days. She said ‘yes’ and I was just so happy! I took her by surprise, but she made a huge exception! The next day the anamneses began. Ilona works with me on her birthday, on Christmas and on new year’s, in the morning, in the afternoon, in the evening and mentally even at night. 

For the first time I felt completely held and cared for. Me and my themes were the center of attention and she was there only for me. That was a completely new experience for me. There was no ‘next patient’ after one hour. No. I was the only person for the next two weeks.

For the first time, I discovered my breath. Fully aware, and that I had hardly breathed before. I learned to properly breath into the lungs and to integrate this into my normal breathing. I was breathing and breathing and everything became more alive. That was a great feeling.

The deep-soul-healing work was overwhelming. After the session on my father the feeling towards him changed. Where there was hatred and anger, I now experienced connection and melancholy. The process was accompanied by strong emotions that made me free. It was a feeling, like from a miracle. The work of Ilona goes so unbelievably deep and it grasps the soul with everything that is. It heals at the deepest origin. I wish that to everyone who has experienced an abuse! In my case it was altogether 5 people. After her work I was able to wipe the abuse off for the first time and I don’t suffer from the images and the emotions anymore. The conjoint sadness is gone and now there is a feeling to be liberated from it. This provides a new quality of life for me.

I not only learned breathing anew, but also walking – through a body-work specifically developed by Ilona. My old posture was caved in and like a screw. She showed me proper standing and proper walking. It was a touching process and an erection on the inside as well as on the outside. It was new, but still it integrated itself every day more. The old felt more and more strange and uncomfortable. It was allowed to leave and make room for the new.

Ilona has a very loving and caring manner. She is honest and she puts her heart and soul into her work. She does her work more than 100 percent. You can clearly feel her passion and her joy. She has built a healing concept, that I have never experienced in this way. It is unique and I hope that she teaches her method some day, so that I can become her student. I hope her method spreads around the world some day, so that as many people as possible can receive healing. I am grateful, I was allowed to work with her. It is a great gift! Thank you, Ilona!

From the bottom of my heart,

Franziska/Hannover/Educator

T. /Bavaria, Germany

Sexual abuse – finally I accept my body again with joy!

I was very nervous when I flew to Ilona’s place for just 4 days in November 2018. She welcomed me so wholeheartedly at the airport that I immediately had a really good feeling. Having arrived at her house we started promptly. For me it was primarily about my abuse at the age of 5. It had been concealed for a very long time, but at the age of 41 it came up again.

Other topics were also on my mind a lot – such as the sudden suicide of my father. I was only 5 years old at the time. I had never forgotten that shock.

With her healing work and her breathing method, Ilona accomplished to free me of all the pain in my soul that had built up over the years! Even my constant physical pain is gone!  Through receiving the deep soul healing work, the breathing method and the intense body work I feel lively again, I can sense, I can feel and I perceive myself as an attractive woman again!

With my whole heart, I thank you, Ilona, for this exciting and beautiful time with you! – and for that I can feel myself again and for that I am able to look and go into the future positively and invigorated.

THANK YOU!

T. /Bavaria, Germany   (translated from German)

Heike, CAM* Practitioner, Life Coach, Hamburg   (Complementary and Alternative Medicin)

“Now I am feeling easy and lively and I am enjoying my life fully”

In deep gratitude and valuation of your wonderful work, I want to write to you today.

For more than 20 years I have been suffering from ever returning states of anxiety and depression. The roots of my life’s story were deeply concealed in traumatic experiences in my childhood. Time and again there were setbacks in my life where those traumata were activated by certain situations. Thus, I have been confronted with my anxieties again and again. In those times it felt as if there was no hope, no healing, no confidence to look forward to a nice life ever again.

Numerous stays in clinics and one stay in a psychiatric clinic provided little good results. Also ambulatory therapies and offerings of family-therapy, energetic as well as EMDR work remained mostly unsuccessful.

When I was in big desperation once again, I have found you, Ilona. I knew and felt immediately, that I would get the help and support, that I needed in my situation. During the initial conversations by telephone, I felt accepted and held. Your loving and understanding manner evoked a lot of trust in me.

In the work with you we have dissolved one trauma each day, as well as processed my themes and blockades. The breathing method you developed is Impressive and beneficial for me. I am continuing to practice it now.

The body work has strengthened and stabilized me. I haven’t felt so alive in a long time. I especially liked that during the 14 days you have been exclusively there for me. Even In the evenings there were conversations about the work that happened during the day. I felt completely held.  Further, you have written a detailed protocol of our work every day. Tis is very valuable for me, since I can refer back to it later on.

Additionally, you have opened something in me, so that I am now able to say what I think and feel. Thereby, I feel freed from within. I was also very pleased that the descriptions on your website were absolutely identical with your work. My expectations have been exceeded by far.

Today, I know that healing is possible and that the journey to you, dear Ilona, has been the best decision of my life.

I am free of anxiety and depression and infinitely grateful for this wonderful colorful new life. I will never forget your benevolent, warm and understanding eyes.

Heike, CAM* Practitioner, Life Coach, Hamburg   (Complementary and Alternative Medicin)

(translated from German)

D.B. Thüringia

I have always been sad, anxious, introverted and by now I hope to just hold out until my kids are on their own. In short, I was a wreck which instantly burst into tears right away when look at in a funny way.

A normal day was the biggest challenge for me, and when something was just slightlx different from the usual, I was hopelessly lost More than thirty years I have beared my existence/desaster like this and it always got worse and more difficult.

Already after the first session we made it. The abuse was processed. After one weekend I was a new human being.

Instead of fear, now there is curiosity. Instead sorrow, there is peace. I am able to walk upright and with a smile through life. Change and variance now are challenges and welcome varieties.

Thanks to you, I have a real life now and I am just learning bit by bit to be on my own and deal with it. I savor it and I am grateful.

D.B. Thüringen

J.P. Berlin

The sexual abuse by my father at the age of 14 changed my life completely. I closed myself off to life and felt stalled. Actually, my life changed once again in 2015 with a burn-out that sent me to a day-clinic for 10 weeks. At the age of 35, I was mentally and physically at the end. Here, my feelings came up in flashbacks then. This is how the abuse surfaced again and I had to relive the many humiliations, psychological abuses and as a punishments, like sitting with the knees at the wall while stretching my arms above my head.

The determining factor was that I wasn’t worth anything in my life.

After the deep soul healing work I am so relieved to have dissolved it all. Old views are gone! The old life has gone – only images without emotions! My life has changed positively! It’s all empty!!! I am enthused!

I am feeling really well, as if the abuse has never happened. My life feels like on cloud 7, because I feel this lightness for the first time and I am able to own it.

I want to thank you from my heart for your everlasting presence and care, when I was there. It has opened an entirely new life to me. And I know it will keep on transforming.

J.P. Berlin (translated from German)

B. /Thüringia/Germany

Hello Ilona,

yesterday, I had the last appointment with my therapist. I wanted to say ‘goodbye’, at least. I think she no longer ‘understands the world’. Must have appeared to her as if from another planet. I was sitting there in bright clothes (she only knows me in dark clothers), sparkling with energy. I have told her about our work. She could hardly believe it, but is happy for me. At the end I was asked to fill out one of those questionnaires again. I was done with it after one minute, because there was nothing to cogitate about, all positive. I felt a bit sorry for her, because she had to witness how you have completely transformed me within two weeks, while she ran out of ideas how to help me after 2-3 years.

It was such a great feeling for me to tell her, that I wouldn’t know what else to treat, because there is nothing left. Sometimes I can’t even remember how it felt to cry out of deepest desparation.

Very dear greetings

B.

(translated from German)

S.D – Switzerland

I came to Ilona desperate. Even though I may have seemed like an intelligent, likable and active young woman (27), I was injured in depth. For years I have unconsciously carried this pressure and pain of degradation of self-worth in me due to a sexual abuse during teenage years and due to a shock during childhood. Everything was difficult and when I found myself in difficult situations, my thoughts were bitter.

I stayed at Ilona’s for a long weekend. And this precious time with her and her work has changed everything. My feelings of inferiority have gone. I can breath deeply. I feel well. Ease has returned to my life. I am so grateful. I am stable like never before. I feel complete. My trauma are no longer a burden. I can look back, but they don’t influence me any longer

Thank you, Ilona, for your deep-soul healing work. One of the best decisions, I made, to be open and come to you 🙂

S.D – Switzerland

p.s. further observations for documentation

• no more nausea during sporty car driving
• stable center of self
• stronger voice
• different perception by parents and boyfriend, no more feeling of dependance
• a feeling of “being complete”
• increased sense of security
• more tranquillity
• sense of belonging without question. World-feeling is there now.
• I am being perceived differently. Questions: Have you changede something? (e.g. haircolor)
• I can communicate with others more calm and more present
• I realize very quickly when I am getting nervous
• I feel more in the moment

L., Tirol, 2018

Sexual abuse,

this subject belongs to the past, as if the abuse would have never happened. The deep soul healing work on one weekend is a heavenly gift!

I thank you, Ilona, for your presence, your attentiveness and your professionalism!

L., Tirol, 2018

B. /Thüringia/Germany

Finally, I find joy in living!!!!

In my youth I realized, that I was different than others somehow. Everytime a boy would show interest in me, I found him disgusting and repulsive, even when we had been best friends.I never really felt to be a part of something. I was always caught in thoughts. At some point I discovered the link to my past. My brother, who was eight years older, had been abusing me from when I was four or five years old. Since then I had become tense and was always in a state of alertness. I wasn’t able to escape the abuse physically, however. To escape the fear of death, I left my body each time. I felt so alone and exposed, was kind of paralyzed.

When I was twelve my other brother, who was four years older, committed suicide. I loved him so much, that – resulting from my bond to him – I imposed sadness upon myself for the rest of my life. There were only short moments of joy, just to plunge into sadness right after.

Our family-life was characterized by religion and obedience. My father was a reverend and a person of absolute respect for me due to his eruptions of violence towards my brothers. Even in my adult age I felt the fear and simultaneous dependence. My dogma included complete self-abandonment for others. During my entire life I wondered “who am I”, “what is left of me”. Often times I hated myself, hated my body, hated my life. Everything seemed so pointless.

Despite all this, I entered relationships and married my second boyfriend. In marriage I felt not understood and lonely. Sexually, I felt totally under pressure.  Eventually, I tried to forget everything by using alcohol to become aroused. We weren’t able to maintain the marriage for long.

Now I am married again. My husband was very sensitive and understanding from the beginning. We trapped ourselves in believing, that the relationship would be able to heal me, but once again the sexuality influenced everything. Hardly ever, feelings came up on their own. Everytime I had to persuade myself that sex is nice. My body and soul weren’t able to keep these feelings.

Desperately I tried for twenty years to find help from therapists – as an  in- as well as an out patient. I always felt that everything is much deeper down. So deep, that noone was able to get to it – not even myself. Again and again I searched the internet for possibilities to receive true healing. I read books and tried techniques. The result was the same everytime: at the beginning there was euphoria and hope to have found the right thing, then followed by an ardous and never-ending path and finally the understanding that it does not help. Even though, many things have put me forward a bit or helped briefly, but healing was not in sight. It is said, that something always remains from a trauma.

But then I found a video of Ilona Palucki in the internet. I heard exactly what I felt – that the abuse and all other trauma is anchored in the deepest fibers of our body, in our organs and muscles, in our soul. I was so enthusiastic and hopeful, but on the other hand couldn’t believe that in such short amount of time, someone should be able to leave his past behind. Despite all opinions raining down on me I wanted to believe it. The introductory talk with her had affirmed my hopes.

Then, I was able to experience it with my own body and soul. In just two weeks we have processed one trauma each day and I was able to leave it behind thanks to Ilona and her special way of working and her breathing technique. Only briefly I had to establish a connection to my emotions and didn’t have to live through my trauma once again – as is the case with other techniques. Every day I was able to leave a huge rock from my past behind.  Every day I grew more free, happier. An “I” started to develop. This “I” continues to develop further until today and it just feels wonderfully alive. For the first time in my life I am looking forward to thethings to come! The past no longer plays a role. It has become insignificant. My soul is healed and by that, my body heals as well. I am no longer under constant tension. After the first three days, I no longer had Restless Legs Syndrome. For the past years I was only able to control this via the intake of medication every evening. The pain in my hips and neck are gone, my posture is upright. I am experiencing a deep tranquillity and equanimity.  The time with Ilona finally gave me a life. Now, I feel joy to be a woman with everything that belongs to it.

Ilona, I thank you for this wonderful time. You have taken so much suffering from me and awakened so much joy. You are an impressive woman with endless passion for your work and for your clients. I didn’t know that one could have so much fun while dissolving trauma. Thank you for everything!!!

B. /Thüringia, Germany     (translated from German)

G. Granada/Spain

Multiple sexual abuses during my childhood!

Now, after 50 years finally healed during 1 week-end. I feel free!

Thank you

G. Granada/Spain

(translated from German)

Rita Maria, Switzerland

I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart, Ilona, that with your help and skills as healer I was able to let go of all my traumata. One day, one trauma… at first it seemed unbelievable, but now being back home it is real! it just is. After all these years of grief, feeling desolate and melancholy about everything that affected and characterized my life since my childhood and during my marriage, now I just feel liberated!

Knowing that after three weeks of intensive work, my traumata have been released makes me just happy! When I sometimes experience physical sensitivities (symptoms after my stroke that I had last year) I start your wonderful, beneficial and special breathing method and it helps instantaneously! I am deeply grateful. My posture and attitude have changed too. With the breathing and your support over the phone, which you offer for two further months, I can only say that it has been a huge gift to us that we found you. Thank you, just thanks to you, thanks to life and to the wonderful All and Everything!

Rita Maria, Switzerland

(translated from German)

D.S. Bern/Switzerland

Out of the shadow into the sun!

Raped four times, and years of mental and emotional abuse! So many years of therapy and always the great desire to leave behind my sorrow and traumata. Last appointment with psychiatrist last December.

Now, I’ve finally found deep peace, no further emotions left, only pictures. After working with Ilona Palucki the traumata are finally gone.

I experienced overflowing warmth and assurance and learned how to feel and accept it – and now it makes all sense to me. I am eternally grateful.

In the light at last! Thank you!

D.S. Bern/Switzerland

Pierre, Cannes/France

Maybe it’s a little long, but I’d like to speak from my heart.

For many years, I was being depressed and sad. Sometimes it got better for a short while, but only to be drawn back into those sad feelings rather quickly. I didn’t believe in myself and lacked confidence. You explained to me exactly why old hurt feelings and emotions resurfaced and why I got so overwhelmed by those feelings again and again. That’s how I started to trust into your work.

We worked through all these old experiences, and one by one they dissolved into nothingness together with their accompanying emotions. Dear Ilona, by teaching me your breathing technic you guided me step by step to my inner self and how I could protect myself better in the future and how to grow. Now I’m able to deal with sad emotions, fear and other upsetting feelings on my own.

Today, I’m feeling good and happy, free and proud of who I am. I am finally free of fear and have great faith in what the future holds for me.

In addition to these positive aspects I would love to express my gratitude that I lost my desire to smoke already after only one session without even working with this problem – and I used to be a heavy smoker. I stopped smoking without great effort and today I have almost forgotten that I actually did smoke at all.

Ilona, during the hours with you, you taught me how to have deep confidence in myself and in life itself, how to just be who I am, pure, healthy and undepraved.

Thank you so much Ilona that half a year ago you took the time to work with me.

Pierre, Cannes/France   (translated from French)

M / Germany

I was abused when I was 5 years old. …and that was not the last time. Unfortunately, I had to endure it again and again. All this had completely thrown me off track and when I was 20 years old, I had to undergo therapy many therapies, deep analytical therapy and behavioural therapy combined with hospitalisation. Feelings of powerlessness and numbness, I was suffering from spasms, and was constantly in fear, mainly of men. After I reported this to the police I had to face appraisals from almost 30 experts. Now I’m almost 30 years old. I’m out of work for 4 ½ years and a pensioner for 2 years. To deal with the appraisal-experts was not only excruciating, it was simply inhuman. With every expert report, I fell down further. The piercing questions about the every painful detail about my traumatic experiences created only more trauma in turn. I know many people, who had to endure the same treatment.

I was really looking for help! A stay of 18 days at Ilona Palucki’s, was my very last hope for help. During this time, I learned how it feels like to be strong and to stick to my decisions. The constant inner conflict belongs to the past now. I know what I want, feel calm and free. I can feel a huge inner space and expanded to the outside. Finally, I allow myself to feel my body and my sensuality. An extraordinary feeling! I used to be dyslexic (I could hardly read 3 sentences without forgetting them again right away) – all gone! Already after one week with Ilona I started to read a book. Pure pride and happiness. The feeling of helplessness and fear has completely vanished. I have no problem anymore to face people and can go out into the street.

The feeling of togetherness replaced repulsion. Now I have a deep sense of happiness and face only realistic problems without fear. The best is that the people around me can see my transformation. I am very grateful for my newly-found sensuality. I am also very happy that my psychologist, who even encouraged me to to Ms Palucki, is also stunned by my profound transformation. In this coming year I finally see myself taking further education and with a job again – a normal life.

M / Germany 

Aurélie A. / Nice / France

I am 33 years old. After my second miscariage my life has started to change. I have had a breakdown for several months! The miscariage was not acceptable to me. Why did it happen again? I went to see a psychologist, but it did not help. Things got even worse. He made me question things which before were obvious. He said that it must be my fault by me subconsciously refusing my boyfriend! Therefore I stopped going there, and I turned to spirituality.

Since then I have been working on my self. Sometimes I was feeling better, but still I was keeping my huge sadness! It was like I had lost the joy of life itself. I always had these huge suitcases to carry along with me, and they made me become sadder. My body was tired, and I was lost in my feelings.

Then I got pregnant for the third time, but unfortunately I had to make an abortion, because it´s heart stopped beating. In my mind it was like I had made a third miscariage.

Four years later, I have been lucky to meet Ilona. At the beginning I was scared to work with a shaman, but it has been the best decision I have made since my « babies » problem. While I was explaining to Ilona the most important facts which happened in my life, she has noticed a red thread from my birth to me wearing a corset during adolsecence and to my miscariages.

We first worked on my 3 miscarriages as these were the heaviest part of my trauma. Ilona has explained me her IP-Breathing Method which allowed me to release my trauma. The experience was very intense, as we have to go back to the feelings of our bad memories/experiences. I felt very tired, but lighter & calmer just right after our work together and I still feel this way 2 months later. Thanks Ilona for guiding me in my release. I can now speak about my miscarriages without bursting into tears, without being lost in my feelings.

Then we worked on the wearing a corset for 23 hours a day for 7 days a week from my eleventh birthday onwards for five years. (The mobbing by the other kids). My body, my muscles, my organs, my cells had kept this bad experience in memory – a kind of body prison – and Ilona help me to let it go.

Ilona then worked on my birth. I almost died on that day, because of several medical errors which led to me bering in coma for a short time. Ilona has liberated my emotions linked to this trauma, as well as the ones caused by my mother!

Finally we have worked on my body, in order to help me find the right posture. This work has been very helpful, and allowed me to be more centred and stable. I still practice this work every day by myself, and I can feel the positive effect it has.

Thanks Ilona for your love, your guidance and your knowledge. Thanks for having shown me your breathing method which fills me with energy and power.

Aurélie A., Nice, France   (translated from French)

Pauline S. / Waiblingen

I was 8 to 10 years old. My granddad, about 76, took me often on his lap. He held me firmly with one hand while touching my breasts and underneath my nickers with the other hand. It was repulsive, I was disgusted and felt humiliated. Afterwards he gave me sweets. I was afraid to be alone with my granddad. My mother was aware of it, but refused to believe the truth all the same.

During my apprenticeship my boss’s financial adviser came to my flat under the pretext to discuss important papers with me. Quickly I was harassed and raped by him. Until today I felt complicit and dirty. A ceaseless inner pressure was my persistent companion. This burden was unbearable and influenced my relationships.

At first, Ilona showed me her special breathing method. It is unbelievable but through this she is able to perceive old trauma that I couldn’t even remember anymore. She also saw that I had an abortion – something I hadn’t told her beforehand. She saw and described my grandma and mother. She saw pain in my abdomen and chest.

Through the breathing technique and Ilona’s cautious guiding I was able to “see” into my inner darkness. During our work together the darkness progressively vanished and gave way to brightness. Insults, harassment and rape lost their impact and I kept feeling lighter and lighter. The horrifying pressure went and I had the feeling of freedom and purity. Scary and persistent dreams that had to do with my work and completely destroyed relationship didn’t come back. After a punch from my ex-partner I had a swollen and calloused eyelid. Ilona inquired about it and after the healing work my eyelid was normal again.

I was in complete despair about my situation and wanted to give up. Just before Christmas last year I was even thinking about suicide. My body was tense, bend over and without stability. Now, I leave Ilona as a positive thinking and confident woman that can also be seen in my new posture.

Everything is in connection: Ilona’s deep soul healing and bodywork, her breathing technique, her garden, the peace and quiet and harmony.

I am more grateful than I could say that a psychosomatic clinic didn’t get back to me even after several calls from my GP. Group talks with total strangers and possible long-term medication treatment would never have solved and cleared away my problems.

Thank you! Thank you! For this new life!

Pauline S., Waiblingen

Lionelle /  San Francisco / USA

Lionelle, San Francisco/USA

Peter F. / Germany

While being on holiday in the South of France I had a complete breakdown (burnout). Thankfully, a friend of mine referred me to Ilona Palucki. During the healing work with Ilona, a sexual abuse from my early childhood resurfaced. An immense heavy load that caused sexual problems during my whole adult life could finally be solved, now at an age of 65! It was impossible for me to talk about these difficulties that affected my whole life.

You, Ilona, brought it straight to the point, talked to me in a naturally sensitive way while healing the abuse.

Thank you so much for this healing work. I am ever so grateful that I met you in this time of need.

Peter F. /Germany

Ulli W. / Munich / Germany

Seven years ago I got beaten up, was strangled, abused and in the end even raped by a psychopath – only by chance I survived. Upon the advice of my lawyer I consulted a trauma-psychotherapist, who by all means helped me out off the deepest hole. Since the trial began only half a year later I had to relive this terrible ordeal with all its pain, terror and emotions over and over again. With every time I had to replay this nightmare like a movie, it burned itself even deeper into my subconscious. After the trial, which I perceived as another rape, I simply wanted to forget and never talk about it again.

Ilona Palucki was recommended to me, for I needed help. I met her only reluctantly though and was extremely nervous since I was certain that I had to explain everything in detail yet again. Astonishingly, the opposite was the case. During only one afternoon I was able to literally breathe away my trauma and all its injuries through an intensive deep-soul healing with positive thoughts and forgiveness for the perpetrator (forgiveness is a vital part in the process of letting go of one’s past). In three further sessions we worked through some older deep emotional wounds and physical problems.

Now, I’m feeling free again! I am actually healed. I can watch my past like a movie that doesn’t affect me anymore. Everything is so far away!

The wonderful thing with Ilona’s healing work is that she gave me the understanding and confidence that I’d be largely able to heal myself in the future. By working actively with her and the conscious breathing I was able to feel my body and, most importantly, MYSELF again! I began to appreciate and love myself once more. I discovered my growing strength and how it affected my body positively.

Thanks to the IP breathing technic I am able to live without the cortisone inhalations, which I had to inhale 3 times a day over the past 3 years. My lungs finally reached their vital capacity again, even under physical strain.
This makes me strong for the future.

I’d like to add that I find Ilona a very personable, warm hearted and particularly competent person with a vast knowledge and experience, someone who can easily be trusted.

I want to thank Ilona for all her help from the bottom of my heart and hope that she can help many more traumatised people.

Ulli W. Munich/ Germany / 2015

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Moni. S. / Ludwigshafen / Germany

Catalina / Luxemburg / Kapverden

A.B. / Cook / Deutschland

M.D., Lower Saxony

M. B. / Den Haag / Netherlands

W. Märker, Meerbusch, Germany

Tobias K., Cook, Lüneburg, Germany

K. Forster / London / UK

Martina and Dirk Hopfensitz, Munich

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Silvija Bihler, Institute for asthetic and medical Cosmetics /Split/Croatia

Eva N., NLP, Frankfurt, Germany

J. Muther, Zurich, Switzerland

Madline Br; San Francisco, USA

Silvija B. / Croatia

Anita D., Health-Referee, New Homeopathy, Germany

Anita B., Augsburg, Germany

Wynande M., Den Haag, NL

Werner H., Stuttgart, Germany

Michael Gabriel, Reading / Therapist, Berkshire, UK

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Michael D. / Performer / New York City / USA

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Martina H., Munich, Germany

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